Load of mixed emotion

2006-11-25T05:15:00.000-08:00

2006-11-18T05:25:00.000-08:00

today went to vivocity.its so crowded.hate it so much.No sales at all.Long journey...nothing much to mention.Bought nothing but take some pictures with him and me.Bought new hp,oklah not bad... so long its ok im fine.So i was wondering what shall i do with my blog after so long not bloging.Been busy and internet keeps troubling me at all time at home.=(

2006-11-16T18:14:00.000-08:00

"I am very disappointed with you. I just dunnoe why you behave that way yesterday. Of all the people in your team, why must it be you we are disappointed with? It doesnt hurt so much when other people make trouble. However, it breaks the heart when your own people try to make trouble. I tot you would understand us best. You have been with us for so long for you to understand our plight. But you choose to misbehave. Why?Why? I understand that you are not the kind of person who will say things out volunteerily. I even nicely approach you again to ask you to stop the nonsense and behave. You happily turn back the table at us. Thanks for all the friendship. I gave up. Up to you to decide." - quote from soemone blog.

When game are tense, u will heat up fast.Its not wrong that in game you are angry.Its just a game.When i did nothing wrong, people blamed me.I never blamed the people,it just started that everyone is blaming me.Its soo unfair for me but i think i rather get angry during the game than after game..Never did i believe she wanna QUIT! fine,but i know she doesnt like me...She doesnt know how its like when u are in tense game.I never understand you guy best,stop using me,u guys changed A LOT! and dumped me.Im such an asshole to suffer this.

So, i've not been telling u guys how, u guys treat me and so.I feel left out and un important in your books.I never feel the happiness and joy that we had in previous semester,But now u guys are so happy with other people and even with YOUR OWN NEW friends.Noone has the concern of going to my blog to tag, no one even bother to read my blog,no one even bother to tell me their secrets..noone even tell whats going on,e.g. going out without me.Noone even call me for a chat,ITS just between u guys ONLY.I never feel anything that we are together from the day i know u guys.Cause im always left behind and dreaming in my own world.Fine, one friendship gone, who else wanna give up?Then there is this one time,they we talking about adidas thingy, they didnt even invite me,instead of me they called their own friends.They even forced those who doesnt wanna go.i just kept quiet and be with it. I've long to tell u this, u guys have not treated me fairly..and treat me invisible,noone even want to be with me...All u guys know with u 4 girls and main comm and sub comm and yours truely friends.There's more to say . . the words said are not = to suffering and pains.. ONLY within u people and your people.Open your eyes BIG enough to see whats goign on that u people dun see it.

i know u guys may get hurt and unhappy with me.I never felt that u guys will do this to me.
im always left out.I never feel that i am important.Its been long ago i said this.But there is no different to it till the new semester came by till right now.

2006-11-09T07:09:00.000-08:00

2006-11-09T05:38:00.000-08:00

ok.Too much time spent on school.School is getting into my nerve.Stress all the way.All subjects have projects.Many things to do.Many thinks to get it done.But im still daydreaming in class.When can all these stop! Im totally stress when i see alot of things are line up that need to be done.So much hate CSAD,+ the lecturer = BORED!....I prefer WBAT! dominique's husband!

so last week i went for hari raya! Sorry for the late update! too tired at times,in addition my internet IS DAMN SLOW! i have problem login in to blogger.Another thing is i lazy to edit pics.
So i guess pictures will say a thousands words... here are they.

So tomorow im going out for another RAYA with siglap..followed by Captain's Ball by Director's Cup (Engineering) and finally sunday, i think i must start doing my report for CMSK!by sunday...Oh no! Im going another raya with BIE.

2006-10-29T06:23:00.000-08:00

woah! what a weekend.okay.saturday was bored.however dya came over my house while waiting for her parent to come to tampines.So she came here for awhile after her work.Did some things..transfering songs,watch dvd, and so on.then at late evening met my love, to catch movie at the cathay.So we had reached dhoby ghaut,and my mind suddenly think that the promotion was abit weird,so i asked him for the card and i read the condition at the back of the card.So the first that caught my eyes was its before six pm and only on weekdays! *spanking* my love is so funny.I think i must knock his head.to wake him up or he needs tuition.hahaha... he was so shocked to know that he got it all wrong.and he giving me this kind of attitude." ala..."*then like cannot walk properly* and he keep brooding "let's catch movie"... Too bad i say "NO,why not u teman me go shopping?"..hehe.. so after awhile he is ok.

Thank god! and he told me that..one day we gonna watch at least two movie in a day if only there are nice shows ... since we got two free card promotion.*think and think* damn,i need to buy buspass by the time and i had no duit makan for this week and whats not the following week,and furthermore..my bills are dueing soon ... GOSH! kaching,kaching, come at once and gone at once..."aiya"...so today stay at home get some duit raya!been busy all day at kitchen doing the dishes andwashing.heh.orang da kasi duit raya tak kan nak tolak.

oh ya, and nisa just received her gold chain heart necklace which is so sweet.I want gold! i want... i want....im gonna grab those online stuff! i shudnt wishy washy about it.done!

dear, will you buy for me one day?

love, u sooo handsome and cute. =)

my love,i love you soooooo much! why, because you love me sooooo much like i do.

2006-10-25T17:09:00.000-07:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA !
hope everyone enjoy themselves
more collection for those who is not yet "bangka"
and mohon maaf zahir & batin!

why is there still little secret among you guys? why still whispering when there is great event going on. and whats not,its adidas.why asking other people to join when your own friends wanna join.Why? and btw that event is for all poly open to all public.So thats why response will ovewhelmed.

Im trying to get thru my friends' friendin Rp for the adidas thingy.Since my friends are not encouraging me to participate but someone else instead.

whatever it is .. i dont care if im not in sub comm.For all i care is no secrets and biasness please. . .

Whatever..whatever..whatsoever

2006-10-20T07:58:00.000-07:00

i know its hard to get a call from you.

i was waiting for calls,3 msgs in the morning,No reply,

yes,he is sleeping till afternoon.oh great!

i purposedly call him at 11am to wake him up for prayers.

i bet, he knows nothing,but maybe to him im just disturbing his beauty sleep.

what a mundane day,boring and wasted day!

2006-10-18T09:33:00.000-07:00

"baby its a bliss..
it was so nice to be happy everyday
with you, and only you"

and who shop the most?
and who love you the most?

2006-10-16T09:03:00.000-07:00

its been awhile that i havent been blogging.my dearest is bugging me to update,my blog,friendster,and etc.well im just too tired and plain lazy girl,because i have been working for the past one week without off except for one thursday.Excuses cos im sick.heh.but i was abit.

last week went to watch me,you and dupree with him.it was my first time ate at starbuck with him.treat him cheesecake and i bought for myself chop chip muffin. and free ice blended by fye.heh.So had a great day and missed him.

so let see..okay! so my birthday have passed yet i havent been so eager to update and thank my friends,who have been so wonderful and thoughtful for planning birthday treats,places of interest and nice-nice food! since my birthday i have been eating alot for BUKA but skipped sahur till now..So im trying to maintained myself from indulging too much food.Very well time spend with friends,had some fun with poly friends and my girlfriends and love ones.Didnt expect my wish came true! i was only hoping but not to be demanding. heh. i was pleased to announced that i had WONDERFUL time,assumptious food,intersting friends and great presents!!
thanks you so much.Its so happening..so so so so happening!

so i really wanna thank to people who had wished me happy birthday thru sms-es..they do play apart..a simple message with a great thought...

some pictures especially for you guys. i hope received some pictures from u people who havent given me.

2006-10-10T21:56:00.000-07:00

hey guys!

im sorry for the late update on my bdae celebration.
i'll be back soon after i have received the pictures and update u guys soon.

it's not that i dont want to update.but i dont have pics to share with u guys right now!

till then do stay tune for upcoming blog.And YOU, please send me the pictures..i wanna see how ugly i am with red eyes..

2006-10-05T06:55:00.000-07:00

lastest news:
06102006 : going out with him.
07102006 : going out to meet my poly firends.
08102006 : going out with my girlfriends.

today i did data entry of about 6051 entries...
so earn about 68 bucks...like haryati say[aku kaya]
but i dont think sooo..... and whats not we keep challenging ourselves.
smua tak nak kalah....

till then. 3 days to come.
its gonna be my big day!

2006-10-03T06:01:00.000-07:00

and here it goes... a request by dearest masturah. hehe

1) single, taken or crushing?
Ans: single. .

2) Are you happy with your life now?
Ans: life now? not today especially.it suck.can you believe i frown the whole day at work?

3) When you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him fast?
Ans: it depends on me, sometimes not really suitable for me, i may tend to fall for him.. oh well but i know my limits! and whats more if the person is sincere to be with you,when im not ready.

4) Have you ever been heartbroken?
Ans: As usual,when there is love ther is heart broken times going on in life.

5) Do you believe that there are some circumstances, where cheating love is acceptable?
Ans: what can i say, i've never cheat love but i ever being force to love someone in the past.(its like i love someone else and someone else is in love with me.)

6) Would you take someone back if he cheats on you?
Ans: No.i didnt go back to him.But i still his friend.

7) Have you ever talked about marriage to someone else before?
Ans: Marriage.nope.Just my mum keep bragging about marriage when we are so lazy to do how work.

8) Do you want children?
Ans: Yes! i wanna see my children grow,beauty,love and live with them.

9) How many?
Ans: even number. 2,4? dunnoe.

10) Would you ever consider adoption?
Ans: i would, if parents accept the idea + my husband, cause i really want to have children when im married.Prefer my own flesh blood.

11) If someone likes you now, what do you think is the best way for him to let you know his feelings?
Ans: tolerate my nonsense and always there when im down and knows how to treat me and surprise me with his own technique.Just like on chinese show love chocalate hidden in his hand.

12) Do you enjoy getting into relationships?
Ans: I do, but at times it just make me so uneasy.if your relatives, parents dont accept young love...

13) Do you believe in love at first sight?
Ans:hmm... could be

14) Do you believe you can change someone?
Ans: i did it before changing my bf attitude,like smoking and he listened but after sometimes dont think of it.. cause its not easy.But oh well,im not perfect.

15) If you could get married somewhere, where would it be?
Ans: Hotel?

16) Do you give in easily when you're fighting?
Ans: i always wanna win.But i lazy to fight i just dont bother to fight..i just keep a distance away and keep quiet.

17) Do you have feelings for someone right now?
Ans: ya, i do..

18) Do you ever wish that you could have had someone, but you messed it up?
Ans: I did it once,and mess myself,friends and people around me.

19) Have you ever broken a heart?
Ans: duh! ya.... batu api and keras hati nye mcm aku la.

20) If one day your best friend falls in love with the guy you are deeply in love with, what would you do?
Ans:Im shocked, i dont trust her anymore.For after sometimes maybe we get back together again.i can always have another guy.if only i have someone in mind.

21) Are you missing anyone right now?
Ans:Ya, after get angry with him.. and my friends, all of them! can u read THIS!!! IMISSYOU LAH...

22) Now you have to ask 5 of your friends to do this survey in their blogs. Write down their names in the list below.
1.idris
2.Dawn
3.Sufen
4.Haryati
5.Zeyra

2006-10-03T05:22:00.000-07:00

today wasnt a good day at all.I was mad the whole day.i was holding my breath so tight till it at the verge of vomitting.Im so usedto hld my breath back..So today went to work.Everything that happened today was really getting into nerve.

1.OCR ( and i have to type for like two hour, long winded title..damn it)
2.i couldnt do the myanmar articles out of sudden( i almost break down,everytime i do i have to refer to view image and therefore getting myself confused and confused)
3.him(whatever you dont need to explain)
4.Couldnt reached 4 000 (stupid OCR)
5.The workers there so called supervisor(Irritating, pemalas, slow,badiGOl betul )
6.Ter close application! damn it waste like 200+ i think...have to start again!!!

so after work went home straight and sleep..till 7.05pm.

so long and good nite!
NOT EARNING MUCH!
DAMN!

i wanna catch you me and dupree...

2006-09-30T14:57:00.000-07:00

OK here's the update about myself.So i currently working at bedok area.I just started to work just yesterday morning.Went there with him,because its my first day.Im so blur like sotong,even he thought that i wasnt serious at all.But the second time i do i did better.Was a bit angry with him because while waiting for him( to pray and finish data entry) i could earn more money .. Thanks ehh.So on mon, i have to bring faizal and haryati to the workplace..Step mana nyer pekerja lama gitu. hehe..

So yesterday after work went for shopping.SHOPPING SPREEE! Oh went with him to get stuffs.His stuff and my stuff...He bought alot of stuffs than me.. Oh well, i just couldnt decide myself what to buy.So Birthday is coming and yeah, looking forward to it! on 071006 im booked!Not sure about my secondary friends..no idea but there will be gathering with NPCC gang!..But about the other gang no news..so nevermind, i hope the two girls plan ahead.. plan betul-betul,make sure happening... hehe, tahu takpe!

THANK YOU so much!
thanks for the days,work,food,love,present,gift.. =)
Just couldnt stop thanking you more.
Thanks again.
oklah i wanna get some rest.im sleepppyyy..
i need some rest later im going to work.Earn more money to top up my bank account.

see you guys again!
Happy fasting.

2006-09-26T02:26:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was a shocking news that Hady Mirza won! i cant believe it.i told my sis "Alah..my heart tells me that jonathan is gonna win!".. Then when the result is out..i jumped and jumped until zakiah's hand hurt.Im sorry.. This few days she has been so close to me,telling me her problems,then when it comes to sleeping time,she always hug me so tight and always wanna gossips before sleep.But sometimes tak terlayan...haiz.

Today i clean my room,wardrobe,study tables,toilets,and many more.So sweep the house for many rounds,mop the floor twice and now im tired. Very tired now.Had a small fight with my mum.Cause she always pandang rendah at me.Never please with my work.Im tired to listen all the along ive bee keeping quite,i couldnt even bath in peace and still can shout in the toilet.Goodness!Now i dont know what to cook for buka.Till then.

imissyou.

2006-09-25T01:53:00.000-07:00

Had a great day last few days with him.Its was nice and hopefully
more great thing hapens to me.So as i was browsing my email,
This email(below0 reminded me of dawn and domint when they were
at Sports hall..i guess.. Urgh! what is happening to my hometown.
so beware!

In the first case, which occurred on 6 Jan 06 at a HDB block at
Tampines Ave 5, a 14-year-old girl was in the lift on her way home
when a Malay man in the same lift, carried his bicycle and
intentionally used the handle bar to lift the victim's skirt. He
then molested her. In 4 other cases at the Tampines area, a Malay
man would use his bicycle to block the victim from leaving the
lift. He would then molest them.

In two other cases which occurred on 13 and 14 Mar 06 at a HDB
block at Tampines St 82 and Tampines
St 81, respectively, a Malay
man asked the victims, an 11-year-old and 12 year old girl to help
him lift his bicycle. He would then take the opportunity to touch
them inappropriately.

The description of the culprits given by the victims in all these
cases seems to suggest that it is the same man who is responsible.
The suspect is described to be in his 30s, of slim-build, curly
hair and about 1.7m tall. All the cases occurred inside lifts and
the culprit was always with a bicycle.

We would like to take this opportunity to advise the public to be
alert and report anyone fitting the description behaving
suspiciously. Parents
of young children are also advised to
educate them to be wary of strangers when in the lift.

Members of public should contact the Police emergency line 999
immediately should they spot the man shown in the photograph.
Alternatively, if you have any information on the suspect, please
call the Police Hotline at 1800-255-0000. Your identity will be
kept strictly confidential.

2006-09-20T06:05:00.000-07:00

~~i should not use this "boring" word to people.~~ i know it hurts.But i didnt mean it but i just have to tell the truth... Oh maybe, im just to selfish.Im sorry.Im having boring holidays!

2006-09-18T07:54:00.000-07:00

2006-09-18T07:22:00.000-07:00

i just finished watching two dvd since 6 oclock till 10:15pm.The two dvd were REMP-IT and the other was Terpesona Cinta.The first movie was ok-lah..The show is more on racing and some sexual thingy..Can say both show got sexual thingy.. The second movie was a VERY TOUCHED movie.Ouh,i was terpesona when erra fazira and Hans were dating each other.Even though the sypnosis seh that Hans wasnt romantic...I think they are romantic. heh =) Because of Erra being romantic with him,he himself try to be romantic despite some dirty job he work.Whatever it is i think Hans is handsome in the movie. Oh ya, another thing that caught me in the movie was he made tea for Erra when she was sick.Where she said that she drink cold water not hot drink.So Hans avoid her drinking cold water when she is sick.Btw, she make the tea not like us,use lipton teabag to make tea.Can you imagine that he boil the water,do the tea,filter the excess and the tea is done and lastly he made for her porridge too.Another thing that caught my eyes was he asked her "Awak tak takut sakit ke?" She reply "Tak,Awak boleh jaga saya kan?" heh =).
Awwww.... the story is very touching.... i cannot help it.

ku da terpesona.. persona cinta. =)

good nites sweets,sweet dreams.

2006-09-17T09:17:00.000-07:00

So finally its end of Sunday.. Oh, Btw..i bought and order my baju kurung.This time round is dress with outer cloth.I dunnoe whats that but its nice.I chose light orange(creamy orangey).if im not mistaken..i was the fastest person to choose the design,colour and pattern.My sisters took longer time.They cannot decide what colour to choose and what design.And end up i have to help them choose the design and colour.Its like our first time, my mum could at least appreciate the type of design of we want.I was suprised. And of course,must take those big one and not fitting.. Oh ya, when i was trying the clothes, she used me and said that i want a bigger size..which actually not me.The size was alright, but she asked me to take 1 size up.Fine i dont mind after that.So i picked my outer layer and just grab anything that i can fit in and just select any colour and they will customize it for us.Wow! never did that before.So like finally,my mum is so understanding and kind hearted to buy for us the baju raya in advance.Means must pay her pay..I was so scared that she did not have enough money.So my sister chip in some money and teh rest my mum pay. Its so rare, that we actually o out together..seriously...heh.=)

After ordering and buying our baju raya,we went home straight.Its already 9.30pm.Shop is closing.I think we are the last customer in that shop,JELITA.So home sweet home and tried the dress with kebaya (coat).And i think it look great!So much of things to write.But i will end here,Cause im beating.I need to catch some sleep.

So goodnite,sweets!
sweet dreams.Sleep tight.

toddles. =)

2006-09-16T07:39:00.000-07:00

~~I need mouse! spare me one... pls. =(~~

2006-09-15T21:19:00.000-07:00

Yesterday,Sap's bbq was ok.Wow,the chicken is nice.Do you guys know that sap cook?

He cooked the mee goreng.Raz also cooked mee goreng but hot one.

Few people went to the pit,syed,sap,farn,farn B, azhar,madini,daya,haryati,ju,seri,syareal,filza,razidah,sap frens,shikin..

but okla!

Hmm...so my duty was like entertaining people.So i was a bit silly and crazy yesterday night.

i feel like a reporter,mak cik kpo,

too free at home,no work.

So i see you guys,when i see you.

yeah! you've got me in this trick!

Threesome..yes! we're far cousin

me & atie

me & nyonya(daya) heh..

ok,i look like a giant! Oh my, i've grown so much.

see my waist and haryati..same height.But im taller. =)

ju ju will always be the same.

2006-09-15T00:16:00.000-07:00

~~I'm missing a lot of things right now. :(~~

~~Yes! i did pass my exam.. and even got nag from someone.again~~ i dont know why, but started since before my exam.i was really couldnt take in or absorbed any notes or any memorising sentences or whatso-ever..I was so stressed up! Oh well, he can still come to me and nag and nag..So i ask him to go away, to go back to lab.I dont need nagging.. i need encouragement.Soon its over then.what for to say, again. . . its pointless.

Did badly though.My GPA drop a few points.I told my father yesterday,all he could ask was..
"Did you pass?"he asked. i thought he would ask how many A's B's...whatso-ever
"yes!" i said.
"Diyanah nak apa?" he asked.
"Erm.. i dont know.Ayah its not funny!" i said.

then he back to his sleeping beauty.

No work for me.No money for me.No shopping for me.No enjoyment.No wasting money.
But a begger! im so sorry...
how could i spend more $ then you.When you eat so little and spend less then me.
I must make up another day to spend on you,dayah.

I hurt my hand yesterday.I couldnt take it,its so painful..i was like crying in the room.
Couldnt sleep at first.Then i applied oilment to my hand.It was ok the next morning.Thank god!

So two of my friends,borrowing my notes.Studying for supplementary paper.I hope you guys can understand my notes.So long as you guys dont forget to return it to me..I still need my notes for future use.heh.=)

I just dont wish to bother and disturb you anymore.Im sorry,u know who im refering.

Just ignored this nick of mine in msn.

«[ ★•deana•★]» _*fuckingdumbassBITCH!?- imatured._
«[ ★•deana•★]» _*Girls who ditch their man for the other guy?- imatured._

2006-09-12T04:50:00.000-07:00

yesterday was in a mess..
totally in mess ...
i couldnt make up my mind.
i couldnt think properly.
im stress ..
i read newpaper the other day saying if
we cant make decision like wishy washy
she or he is under stress.
which i think so.i do having one at this time.

Bad day i had.So yesterday and today i fast.
yesterday i break fast just a nasi goreng(sikit) and cold water.
And that was for my sahur and buka.
I couldnt eat well yesterday.

Thinking and thinking..
calling and calling..
chatting and chatting...

But still i couldnt make myself at ease.

Nothing much today.
Went to mendaki in the afternoon.alone.
Clarify some things about subsidy and loan.
i think i got extra money for the loan
however it is i wont use it.Save it for next semester fees.

Then i went home straight.
tell my father everything about the stuff that i just
clarify with the mendaki.
And he gave me upah 5 bucks.heh =)
Cause i took the initiative to ask the people there.
He was impressed with me, so he decided to give me some money.
i know, he knows i want $. tada..
Early morning i received call, job offer on promoting again!
Boring ah tuuu keje . . .i said no to her.

Besides that i did nothing...
cause my mouse spoilt.Thanks to my sibling who spoilt my
mouse.I was thinking of editing pic.But no mood.no mouse too.
Just sleep all the way until 5++.

thats my day.bored.

2006-09-08T07:41:00.000-07:00

So much holiday... so much of things to do during holidays..
But end up with so much of interviews...
IM SICK AND TIRED... at last i got this job.
sales marketing?
which i dont think im able to survive..
But i thought it could be good start and not bad there malay workers
too..And i think i saw alot of SIP students too..
Oh welll... whatever it is
im sick of interview which waste my
transportation $$..
i need shopping badly!

today went to Cathay to watch little man,
ITS damn cute and hilarious!!...
I recommend u.Nice to watch if you are stress
and feeling moody..Oh well..
i wanna catch catch another movie ..
ops! i forgot the show title..

Urgh! tmr another 2nd interview!

2006-09-06T08:11:00.000-07:00

SIGLAPIAN YOUTH ALUMNI
A Division of the Siglapian Alumni Association

Re: Ex-Siglapian Hady Mirza one of the Top 4 Finalists in Singapore Idol 2

Dear Siglapian Youth Alumni Member,

Ex-Siglapian Hady Mirza who graduated from Siglap Secondary School in 1996 has now earned the Top 4 positions in Singapore Idol 2.

Throughout the competition, Hady has proved his ability to shine and earned the votes of many. Despite the consistency that he has shown so far, judges have commented that Hady has greater potential and is able to become a better performer than he is now.

Your much appreciated support through voting for Hady will definitely improve his chances to becoming the next Singapore Idol.

Let us together rally to give our utmost support to our talents from Siglap.

For any further enquiries, please contact: Nur Irdayu at 93899412.

Yours sincerely,

Faris Basharahil

Chairman Siglap Youth Alumni
Honourary Secretary Siglapian Alumni

2006-09-02T22:47:00.000-07:00

i slept at 4am.I didnt realise i was awake for so long.
i was supposed to be tired.but i wasnt, =

Problems started to arise.And bullshit are forming bigger.
Whats wrong with u people?

You need help and my opinions.. but you didnt tell me 100%
you just said about 10% which is insufficient,and dare you went to sleep
without informing me. i was pissed off. But i wont show you that im pissed off,
indeed i wanna help you.. without any return but your truthfulness..

I dunnoe what you feel and think about me.All i could do is to help you,
and give in and give out whnever i could, cos i think i told myself "grow up please!"
but on the other hand im at losing end.After hearing story from a friend of mine,
i feel kesian..how bastard and childish that girl is..."eh grow up la, pompan!"

Why out of so many girl,its her that you can fall for?
She is like a bastard,backstab her bf from behind...
From the very start i know its fishy going on..
All i can say is think twice before you do anything..
How do you feel when your in someone position...
[ye org mesti cakap,cakap org.. ko apa kurangnyer]

kalo nk kata hot, tak hot.
Nak kata lawa, i think average.
apa la nak jadi . . . it will always ends with tragic endings.

I always end my day with sad ending.Yesterday fought with my fren
for awhile then baik semula...It all start becaus of that msg.which make me
geram... it was so not my day yesterday.

Im sorry,if i hurt u. . .
i know im not good to you.
imsorry...

2006-09-02T08:26:00.000-07:00

What a day? its so fun be around with you guys.
Its so nice to be free from stress and hectic life.
Before i start i wanna wish dayah "HAPPY BIRTHDAY".

Ni dayah hari ni slenger.Macam nyonya,dengan seluar bunnga-bunga.
Hehehe.. dengan tikar dia.Perangai dia pun macam budak budak..
hehe..Sorry ar babe, nari hari ko.asyik kene dari kita dua( zeyra and me)
Met alot of daya frens "the slenger" especially the grey boy.Heh. =)

Ok2... stop it about teasing her for today..Lets update then.
Exam is finally over.OVER! hope no supplementary paper.
I scared my DBSY,at least a D will do.If can C.hehe. =)
And OPSY is the most difficult for me to score..lucky i scored A for term test.
And hopefully for my lab test will help me to pass... Not forgetting DSAG and OOAD
the do-able paper... thanks ehh lecturers.. =) ... Was disappointed about ooad result
in the morning of wednesday.But at least i passed.I was so thankful that i had last year
exam paper which help me alot! weee..*jumping*Then after the paper we went to eat.
TOGETHERNESS!!!!!! and lastly i broke my nail..

So the next day,Its Thursday.Went out with INT friends.First time we go out together.
So much of us wanna go out together in the past.And we did it this time.I wanna shop! but no $$$ ... Urgh!as i was finding my friends at wisma who is busy shopping,On way i had two interrupt lay approaching me"Hai,would u like to join us in modelling?"
and i was =)... at the same time confused and blur..so i just write down my name and contact.
and walk off...to meet my friends...

I want t work.. My friends offer me FNB.But im so not used to it.So much working behind the scene. =) Friday,Went for MODELLING interview.. haha.. Im so nervous and i gagap,Not fluent.
She was like frowning and she is like computer robot talking in one complete paragraph.Not sentences tau!.... and i was amazed..hehe...actually tmr i gt the modelling course at meritus HOTEL...but i dont tink im taking up the course,btw it worth 2000 bucks!!...

Sorry if ever i reject ur offer. . . or asking me out.. * just saying before u puke me*

taking care.
enjoy your holidays.
=)

2006-08-26T10:53:00.000-07:00

Chat for awhile,with chad .. who is totally in love.
and i just cant believe that his gf making 33 pcs of paper
into a heart shape.So sweet lah.He is busy now,never chat with me
since he got his gf around him... happy coulpling, hehe..

Ok studied OOAD and finish up OPSY last topic.
Rite now my body is aching like aged woman.
Cooked for my family,sweet and sour fish,Fried chickens,veggie and tempeh sambal.
Its supper hot la my dishes.My bro eat until dripping sweat on his face,
my father with burning lips,my small sis too.and me enjoying the meal.. wee

thats all.
now im hungry..
sweets..

2006-08-23T04:35:00.000-07:00

Random fact#1:

You always got nag by someone can be different type of people.
but u think that person need to change alot than u..But you just accepting
that someone 'teguran from mistakes' and trying to change you.
What will you feel?

Random fact#2:

You are now close with boys and not much of girls to hang around
and they are not like someone who could be there for you.Cos im a girl.
And you got no choice,you stick to your fellow friends..after the separation
of your close friends..What do feel?

Random fact#3:
You wish to buy your girlfriend a watch,cakes,jewelleries,
chocalates,presents,perfumes on her birthday,anniversary
to fulfill her wish list.....
Would a guy really buy expensive stuff
for a girl when is still in your heart but no connection?

Random fact#4:
Will you for a guy who only shows the pros and cons about him?
or will you want to know only the good side of him when you
want to date him?

Random fact#5:
Will you love her in the morning?
will you helpher cleanning dirty dishes after eating?

ok.I need feedbacks...
pleaaaaaaasssssssseeee,thank you!!

2006-08-22T06:22:00.000-07:00

I Will Always Be Your Friend.
You are never alone,
I am always near,
When you have troubles or feeling blue,
All you have to do is call me,
I am always around for my friends.
It does not matter where I am,
And it does not matter when,
When you need someone to talk to you,
Then I will always be your friend.
If you need someone to hold your hand,
Or all you need is a great big hug,
I will be the shoulder to cry on,
I will always be your friend.
So never think that you are a burden,
When the world gets you down,
You do not have to be alone,
For, I will always be your friend.

That poem make me smile.Thanks for the testi daya.
tsk..tsk.. thank you so much,for everything.U help me alot..
during our days in school and even now.
thanks dear.

good nite lovelies,
diyanah

2006-08-22T03:37:00.000-07:00

cant really study ...
feeling went down...
wishing everything gonna be fine.

Today i studied..OOAD
im stuck with singleton.
whats that on earth.
I cant understand...

Now i have the habit of not reading the thoery.
Im more to a practical side.
I cant read anymore..

I left with DBSY.
I havent start.. maybe tmr.
Tonight i have to touch up ..
back to OOAD business...

Yesterday studied DSAG and OPSY
Figuring on how to do Sorting algorithm..
Insertion,Selection and Deletion.
i got the hang of it. but tend to forget at time..
Still havent touch up with the code + searching algo.

Opsy i still in doubt.tOO many algorithm
i dont understand the cscan and c look...
and many things to remember the advantages and disadvantages..

2006-08-21T06:16:00.000-07:00

I know ... my three words are expressionless...
I know...

I've never been great to you.
I never grow up..
Im still a girl.

There is so much movie to watch.Anyone has these dvd?
lakehouse?
ex girlfriend?
...etc...

Good nite lovelies.
love,
Diyanah.

2006-08-20T08:25:00.000-07:00

urgh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FUCK !
FUCK !
FUCK !
FUCK !

I SUCK!
I SUCK!
I SUCK!
I SUCK!

IM lousy,im lousy....

U're right,im wrong...
U're right,im wrong...
U're right,im wrong...

U're smart,im stupid...

U're smart,im stupid...

U're smart,im stupid...

KILL ME ! AND URE HAPPY!
I WANNA KILL MYSELF!!

what ever i do, i did wrong!
what ever i say, u THINK im lying...
What ever i gave u, u THINK its FAKE...

What the hell...

DBSY assignment FAIL..
FAILURE IN LOVE
Failure in studies...
Failure in LIFE!!!!!!!!

Im such a failure,
Do you still want me?
Do you.......?

of course you dont want me...
Cos im such a FOOL...

Im going CRAZY!
Im sick,now!!
No one bother about me, when im sick
nO one care about me, NO onee!

Here you trying to irritate me,
Waited for you the whole day
waited for you the whole of yesterday...
waited and waited.....was some kind need ur love.

and u give me this.

«·[ÏÐé§ö_ÅmïGð]·» says:
but then again... u can choose to ans or not wat
«·[ÏÐé§ö_ÅmïGð]·» says:
up to you ah
«·[ÏÐé§ö_ÅmïGð]·» says:
abeh study week dah plan nak blajar ngan asy belum?
«·[ÏÐé§ö_ÅmïGð]·» says:
dah call dier?

«·[ÏÐé§ö_ÅmïGð]·» says:
y
«·[ÏÐé§ö_ÅmïGð]·» says:
y
«·[ÏÐé§ö_ÅmïGð]·» says:
y
«·[ÏÐé§ö_ÅmïGð]·» says:
y
«·[ÏÐé§ö_ÅmïGð]·» says:
y
«·[ÏÐé§ö_ÅmïGð]·» says:
y
«·[ÏÐé§ö_ÅmïGð]·» says:
y
«·[ÏÐé§ö_ÅmïGð]·» says:
y
«·[ÏÐé§ö_ÅmïGð]·» says:
y
«·[ÏÐé§ö_ÅmïGð]·» says:
y

Are you happy now?
Shoot me with your gun, and im dead in your eyes.

happy?

if you wish to see me dead,just do it like i say.

p/s: yes im crying.i am...

2006-08-19T09:45:00.000-07:00

i am sick.I woke up from my sleep just now.Im sad right now.
when im sick,no one even care for me...
no one was there for me...
it was such a disappointing and sad nite.
i thought there will be someone who could bother to consult me.
But no one...until at late nite,i when online 2 of my friends
ask about me...[thanks eeh]

okay i jus too sad.too disappointed.till then goodnites.

2006-08-17T22:21:00.000-07:00

Wednesday was fantastic,i was clad in as a pirate.

Cool.Emcee pirate.. i was happy to be the emcee.

I wasnt so nervous at all.Idris said i sound more matured..

when i was the emcee.Weee..haha..

some cool pics of me to share...

Yesterday did my script.Its was a rush work.

Idris help me to check the script.

Then he gave me 2 slices of cake[cheesecake and chocalate]

yummy..yummy..yum yum..[thanks ehh]

In the morning, i was irritated.Cos i lost all the script.

And i have been bothering sayedah in the morning to print

the summary..And oh well..

And today,2 people late for meeting,damn frustrating.

Ina and hannah... [meeting being delayed]

Then all the script went something wrong during the meeting.

Ina make a mistakes..she was too fast indeed.

Its over now.Minutes to do..

2006-08-15T07:08:00.000-07:00

what is wrong now?

feeling that he expecting something from me?

he has been so down,i feel so disturbed at times.

even though i told him many times,to cheer up

dun everytime feeling so blues and down...

im just good for nothing.I dunnoe how to tell him..

I suggest that he dont brood it over and ove again.

for all i know you want me back.But i think i know it from the start.

Why dun you think of other way besides repeating yourself?

Such like going out for ice skating?,wake boarding? eating?

or picnic? bicycle? etc.. i mean just be something different.

Cos i know you want me,when you repeat i dun feel so safe.

Cos im clueless..to answer.Sometimes it doesnt make me happy.

it may turn out to be bad than wat u expected.[i know ure hurt now]

i just wish you could do thing in other ways for now...

partly because the more you think,the more down u are.

If you see me smile and laugh lol,you know she enjoying herself...

till then.

i miss you.

goodnites lovely.

2006-08-14T05:58:00.000-07:00

Im sad about what had just happened!
my cutie n beautiful pics all gone.just about to edit it.
and i ter-delete. urgh!

Emails

2006-08-12T05:44:00.000-07:00

Happiness keeps You Sweet,

Trials keep You Strong,

Sorrows keep You Human,

Failures keeps You Humble,

Success keeps You Glowing,

But Only God keeps You Going!

***************************************

MATHEMATICS

Smart man + smart woman = romance

Smart man + dumb woman = affair

Dumb man + smart woman = marriage

Dumb man + dumb woman = pregnancy

OFFICE ARITHMETIC

Smart boss + smart employee = profit

Smart boss + dumb employee = production

Dumb boss + smart employee = promotion

Dumb boss + dumb employee = overtime

SHOPPING MATH

A man will pay $2 for a $1 item he needs.

A woman will pay $1 for a $2 item that she doesn't need.

GENERAL EQUATIONS & STATISTICS

A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.

A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.

A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.

A successful woman is one who can find such a man.

HAPPINESS

To be happy with a man, you must understand him a lot and love him a little. To be happy with a woman, you must love her a lot and not try to understand her at all.

LONGEVITY

Married men live longer than single men do, but married men are a lot more willing to die.

PROPENSITY TO CHANGE

A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't.

A man marries a woman expecting that she won't change, and she does.

DISCUSSION TECHNIQUE

A woman has the last word in any argument.

Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.

HOW TO STOP PEOPLE FROM BUGGING YOU ABOUT GETTING MARRIED

Old aunts used to come up to me at weddings, poking me in the ribs and cackling, telling me, "You're next." They stopped after I started doing the

same thing to them at funerals.

2006-08-11T18:30:00.000-07:00

Random facts#1:
yesterday miss gwendoline asked me..
Gwen: "Hey will u join modelling when u grow up?"
Dee: "hehe..nola.Y?"
Gwen: "Because u got model features"[she was so semangat with action]
Dee: "Hmmm..i see.Nola.hehe.Since i was secondary people ask me to join modelling"

n bla bla bla . . . .
Gwen:"u got Janette jackson face" [not again]
Dee:"haha..she not my idol"[i was saying to myself]

haha..and we took pics with her.

Random facts#2:
This irritating kitten [my sis] really sucking my blood.
Always disturb my beauty sleep.
Always climb over my head,poke me,scratch me.
Climb over me,always wanna play with me..
Please tell that kitten to go away...

Now my body is aching everytime.

And i always feel tired nowadays

BECAUSE of that kitten!

nowadays have to sleep early

Because of NOT having enouh rest.

[everytime he go near me i carry him and push him away]

[he will charged meagain]

[i dun want to play with him]

2006-08-11T05:39:00.000-07:00

yesterday was splendid.

beautiful scenary accompanied by wonderful songs.

Dance in the middle of the night with you.

With strong winds with little tiny stars.

i love the last part.Becos of the band thingy.i loike!

Shesh it is the music fault.[hur hur]

Here is the follow up:

sorry i didnt pick any of ur calls.

i wasnt aware.and i was outside.with flat battery.

i just got to know this afternoon that i be the emcee for AGM.

haha.. im giving it a try!

[diyanah is taking the challenge,so this is my second time becoming mc]

woo.hoo..*breathe*

i hope i gain support.Thanks for giving me the chance.

Anyways next week gonna be a super busy week.

its like i have to dress up almost everyday.

due to presentation,AGM and roleplay of meeting.

im dead.For exam.I know NUTS!

Random facts#1:

This morning my father hand over me the mendaki loan

term and conditions.And u guys guess? wat im gonna say.

************

i have to pay $100,monthly to mendaki.

besides that i only got 3o bucks for now as for allowance.

and i have to pay my hp bills + myezlink.

Urgh! damn it.And total i have to repay mendaki,$3000+

get it?!

Sorry we are not rich.Stop thinking that we are rich.

Financial difficulties .to get help from organisation.

i dont wanna loan,but father insists.what to do?

*************************************

Random facts#2:

next time when i grow up i wanna have a stable family

with just nice no.of member in my family.

See so difficult to handle family's financial.

But i know my father is a hardworking man + responsible man!

*************************************

Random facts#3:

Imisseuuguystoo.

holidays coming soon.

2006-08-09T08:07:00.000-07:00

Now its time to lead a new life.

yeah.Alone as usual.Dealing with own problems.

Some people are jealous of me,some people are irritated with me.

They wanna slapped me, and some other thingy.

and so not to owe anyone or to hold grudges against anyone.

People are too sick of me.

Time passes fast,and im like treating them as stranger.

Dont even really talk to them.Sorry sometimes i dont wanna

bother u guys.[as usual im always being left out]

but who cares.Im just nothing to be compared to yours truely darlings.

ok not gonna write any problem here.just be myself then.

here comes diyanah being anti social.

Yesterday slept late nearly 2am.talk on the phone,chatting

and doing my editing for my blog.I still wanna change.

wanna put some emo nemo diyanah. or something different.

wah i missed being online at late hours.

That was went i was year 1 back then i think..

Anyways,had great time during national day,

went to east coast to eat with my twins.[half]hehe..

On our way met these group of holigan of mat rep,

they are sickening people and noisy.[as usual kene kacau juga]

but i dont bother.Totally not my type..

while eating we see people playing wake boarding.

my another wish is to try wakeboarding.

Oh common more experience,please more activities for me to try.

Yeah thats me man,i want.[And looks cool hurh that thngy that zagg join oso.]

ok while we were eating,

then out of sudden i saw sparkling in the air,

and its Fireworks from the stadium.

Wow! it so beautiful.Its my second time i see firework with my girlfriends.

We didnt intend to watch fireworks actually.

Yeah twinnie, u can

continue laughing with my speaking [hur hur].

Fine.Diyanah is a long winded person.[puas hati?]

hehe.But anyways,it because of the bus we reached

home late.[thanks ehh..i cant even see any bus drive pass there]

she said that im funny..

even she is tired she still can laugh at me.[my speaking la]

so reached home late and tired.

so enjoy your sleep then.

im tired and need some rest.

Happy birthday Azhar!

2006-08-01T21:46:00.000-07:00

i keep my problems to myself from now onwards.

sometimes i look back why was i such a fuck to be caught up in a situation.
i had the liberty to choose all theime.
why did i became such a doofus to put my self in a mess.

good day.and goodbye.

2006-08-01T02:11:00.000-07:00

2006-07-30T17:52:00.000-07:00

Days are not getting any better.
ITs like all "my fault"..
Its like one after the other.
couldnt bear to live in this way.
i didnt mean to do it.
because of me people break up their friendship.
she is too ultra sensitive.
wow! she worse than me.

next is a group of friends..
urgh! i dunnoe.
its not getting any better for me.
i dun want to mention anything but ...

nvm.i be myself then.

2006-07-28T02:05:00.000-07:00

DBSY assignment is done.but not completed.
No execution.Dunnoe wats wrong.
n i know im going to flung.

And what a day to start and end

No one ... means no one..
wth.

JUST FORGET ABT ME !

Im bored but stress
with life.Im sick of this life.

Im unimportant;
good day and goodbye.
*hurt*

2006-07-27T00:33:00.000-07:00

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
HE could never be as good as you

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You should be the one I'll always love
I'll be there as soon as I can

But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before
I'll be there as soon as I can

But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

Before you

2006-07-26T02:19:00.000-07:00

TAK TAHU KENAPA LA...
TAPI SAKIT HATI...

CAN I JUST DONT BLOG ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!
I JUST CANT STAND IT!, MYSELF TOO...

2006-07-23T22:35:00.000-07:00

The days.During sumarni's chalet. I just grabbed the pics from zeyra.havent yet received it from zeyra, sofie and daya the pics..

Ayie: Eh cak.takmo mepek ah. eh kelakar seh.

Ashraf:Eh cak, ko makin lama makin kelakar lak.

Din: Eh aku aru dtg ko da nak alik.

Zeyra: eh macm bapok seh ***

Daya: Ko, kalo aku tau aku dtg lambat seh

Izhar: Cak buat kan aku marshmallow mc zeyra

Azhar:Cak ko tak ya diri kat situ la muka ko da cukup gelap.

Sue: Ehh jar, buat kan air.

Sofi: Eh turun la tolong aku.

n bla bla bla....

hehehe..

Thank you enjoy ur stay here..

i wanna a chalet on my bade!
hahaha... . . .

p/s:i miss him soooo much.

but i dont dare to say to him.

really.

taking care.

p/s: passer by pls leave me msg.I hate when u didnt acknowledge me.

2006-07-22T20:54:00.000-07:00

*123*breathe.
relax dee.
now i can only relax and stress myself with work.
Been MIA during my project because of my personal matter.
sorry guys.. sorry.
This time the project are not easy yet i still havent start.
and of course he also doesnt want to see me to be like this.
not doing my studies well and not doing project.

thanks to my friends who had been nice to me,
to give me a shoulder to lean on, not forgeting maryam
for wonderful hug with nice perfume and ur scoldings
and darren thanks for being straight forward and
always been trying to destress me.
su fen who actually want to scold me..
Syahrul and kahar for making me happy and listening to my crap when im down
and syahrul who have been my punching bag.*tu la badan besarkan*
sorry if i punch you hard.[just wanna release my anger]
*and u know what,when i read article during cmsk abt anger and stress
i was *mcm bahasa kan je* hehe...*but still taking into consideration to learn.

..heh*

and so ...

today my cook is zakiah.
she cook for me tomyam rice with egg
very nice,very delicious,better than mine.
hehe
but i taughtt her how to cook.
see. hahaa..=)

i will die without internet.Cos all announcement and guidelines
are in ole! now i feel so lost.
im frustratred,my internet had to re configure.
thanks ehh.

so this week i got plenty of things to do
( i have not been working on it)

cds consultation(tuesday)[need to read abt nightingale]
dsag lab test(wednesday)[BST and stack][100marks]
dbsy assignment due(friday)[70% individual, 30% group work]
cmsk online discussion.[class participation]
No cds lecture this week.[yeay!]
and lastly i have to stay back the whole day!

2006-07-21T08:44:00.000-07:00

2006-07-20T19:56:00.000-07:00

he is the SWEETEST person in my life.

2006-07-19T20:11:00.000-07:00

Don't make me listen to the haunting whispers
Don't let me be lured into trance
Hurt me Abuse me Kill me
Just free me from these........

2006-07-18T08:04:00.000-07:00

i dunoe what i feel now.
something is not right.
he doesnt want to talk to me.
he dun bother about me.
he doesnt want to reply my msg.
he doesnt want to talk to me.
For first time, he treating me this way.
Why?

been losing appetitte all along.
been losing my close friends,including idris.
why vanished ?
im down.down down the drain......

The time has come.it had happened.

i just lost my love one.

2006-07-14T07:54:00.000-07:00

its so sad today.I dunnoe what i am feeling now.
i dunnoe here i stand as ur friend.
to me.right now, friends are just "blind" in my eyes.
when you found someone new, u tend to forget ur close ones.
i feel that from a close fren to a friend friend (just friend).
it is just not right.so be it.
no one ever understood me.Realised it.
i was never a great attention as a fren.

i know im nothing! but at least have fairness within each other.
yeah, i used to sit with mas,aidah,dayana in lec..
but now i chose to sit with my former classmates.
however, i dun find them appreciate me sitting with them.
i reserved sit for them, and ya i dunnoe wat and
how they feel and sometimes being rejected.
if a friend want to sit with u or reserved seat,
that is to show that she/he wanted to be together and be close
welcome ur friends present.i just realised im nothing to them.

why is sufen seat ALWAYS reserved?
why is isabelle sit is reserved too?
Why is Dawn always with Dominique?
Why Maryam close with Sufen?
and why i have to sit away from my friends?
and what is friend?
why? i know im nothing but irritant!
and im no one in their heart of friends.

if u guys think im not important
your new friends are important than me.
u guys have just let me down.yes.
im down in silent when i dun get the attention from my close friends.
so now, i have learnt my lesson to sit with my new classmates.
i hope i wont disturb you guys anymore.
hopely my diappearance means something to you guys.

as i think twice, i know i will feel the same way.
if my name can be in the list without interview like before
as a subcomm.im thankful.if cant its ok.mean no harm to me!

now im fucking off..

2006-07-13T19:04:00.000-07:00

i was happy yesterday in school.

i was sad at nite.to know that i actually lost my usb.

now i have no connection for me to charge my mp4.

suck.suck.

damn it..

how?

2006-07-08T08:08:00.000-07:00

Artist:Avant
Song:Wanna Be Close
Album:Private Room

Verse 1:
Oooo I wanna be girl let me beI wanna be everything your man's notAnd I'm gonna give you every little thing I've gotCause you are more than a man needsThat's why I say you're truly my destinyI'm gonna get chaIf it takes me until foreverNo you don't feel meif forever turns into neverI'll let you know my loveis just that strongAnd for you never just ain't that long ohh TKHook

1:I wanna be the smileyou put on your faceI wanna be your handswhen you say your graceI wanna be whateveris your favorite place, ohI just wanna be closeI wanna be the hat you put on your headI wanna be the sheetsyou put on your bedI wanna be the skirt wrapped around your legsOh, I just wanna be close

Verse 2:

And even if the day turns into nightI will love you by candlelightAnd even if the water starts to run overI'll be there to put you on my shoulder And if it's hard for you to get to sleepI will sing you a melody,I wanna feel this wayTill the end of time, cause I pray one dayThat you will be mineHook

1:I wanna be the smileyou put on your faceI wanna be your handswhen you say your graceI wanna be whateveris your favorite place, ohI just wanna be closeI wanna be the hat you put on your headI wanna be the sheetsyou put on your bedI wanna be the skirt wrapped around your legsOh, I just wanna be closeVerse

3:See my life's filled with up and downsI'm ok when you're aroundAnd when I'm in a stormand my nights are coldReach out your hands for me to holdSee you're my queen on a throneand you're the reason For a song and I can't waitto fill you up with loveFill you with loveHook

2:I wanna be the sun,your stars, your moonI wanna be a hot summer day in JuneI wanna be the smellof your sweet perfumeI just wanna be closeI wanna be the seedThat bare your life brand new I wanna be the onethat's so faithful and trueI wanna be the man down that aislein that suit, yesI just wanna be close ohhh TK

2006-07-07T23:24:00.000-07:00

I no longer belong to HIS heart now.
cause someone else came into his life
and trying to win his heart.

i tell you just to pray for me and move on
you tell me what you feel for me is too strong
and you been cryin up for me for so long
and even thou its right im feeling so wrong
and now you got me acting like i didnt know you
im not gonna be around here so i cant control you
but i can only tell you what i wanna show you
im your love but you can find someone better for you

missed you waking up in the morning
if i can see your face i'll apoligize but no
matter how bad i want it i know
that ill be with you in another life

i heard your with somebody that treats you better
and even thou before you stay with me forever
and now im seeing that well never be together
and i now i seen it coming from the damn matter
and im sitting lonley in this empty house
and all i got is memories to think about
and even thou im broken ima make it out
and your loving is something that ima deal without

its on my mind to sit around and think about it
you know i like you so ima gonna sing about it
i put my living inside you and dream about it
and now i need your loving dont wanna be without it
day and night sittin by the damn phone
tired like you trying to bring your man home
and when i hear you crying girl i cant't call
when all you need from me is just to say close

gone away, i know your gone away
i know your gone away
i know your goneeee and
i dont wanna live another day gone away
i know your gone away how could you gone away
i know your gone and i dont wanna live another day

2006-07-04T05:01:00.000-07:00

Wth?
urgh! i dun understand people around me.
Fucking bitch*
wth?!

i dun understand wat u people out there, want.
But im fucking pissed off with ur attitude!
damn it!...

Drifting apart.
im just like another statue.Annoying statue.
Like make no different. ..no big Deal!
GOOOddness... please act like one not like some coward!
Sick!sickening. . . .

And stop being secretive and hiding things.
What u want? i dun understand ...
URGH!......

Urgh! fcuk off,babey!

Got my result for dsag n dbsy labtest.
Quite unexpecting to me.
Okla not so bad!

Today MR eng treats us,we had fish and
chip with chocalate with ice cream.
Damn nice!
but had stomachace in class.Ate alot of IT!

if someone is like "D".
i thank god.
admired his gentleman.
"S" must be happy with him.
thats good for her.

ok i better stop crapping!
good bye.

2006-06-28T08:04:00.000-07:00

Oh man! feeling shit.
Why?
it seems to be drifting apart somehow
Eversince the school reopens
im feeling driting apart.
with my close frens.
Projects had made me make my life so busy.
and never let me have the chance to be freedom
as before.

=(

im stressed.I ATE ALOTS!
one day can spend 10 bucks for food.

2006-06-26T06:14:00.000-07:00

im feel so lousy.
i talked nonsense just now.
What the heck?!
i ate alot sins HOlidays!
Im so stressed.

2006-06-25T06:36:00.000-07:00

Early at 7 45 my uncle called me .
I picked the phone and i rejected.
i was too tired.So i off my hp.(im soo bad)
hais.When i on back at 10am, he called just nice after i on my hp.
i feel abit weird.
Today early morning went to masjid omar for maulud nabi till afternoon.
i went there with my parents and zakiah.
Omg! me and my sis cant take it with one of this yellow girl
she irritating and demanding helper
goodness! act as if she is big boss there.
She wants to help the servicing but then she pass to other people to do it.
Then she asking those guys helpers to pass to her the tray of food.
But guess what no one pass to her except he r uncle.
hahahahahaaha.
had lunch over there.had nasi briyani over there.
then headed to my grandma house.
Then to home.

Doing my project report.i left one more Question to go forDSAG.
so i have not yet started my OOAD report.
My group member where are you?
i gave u task why no reply?
urgh!

the i was abit upset.sad.about myself.
hais.

2006-06-24T02:14:00.000-07:00

Thanks idris.As a form of appreciation.
Let me post this in my blog.

Thank you.Very much

eventhough u lose the fight with the gold medallist.There are time we can win and there are time we may lose.The most importantly is to take care of your health.

p/s: i cut my fringe already.wee~
at first i thought its ugly.Then i find it is better than the previous one.

2006-06-22T23:06:00.000-07:00

WOO... on my way home i met kenneth.
He was shocked to see me.You know what he said
kenneth: " Wah! u getting pretty!"
Dee:"waiting for who?"
Kenneth: "Naomi."
Dee: "Ohkay!haha....quite long u n her"
kenneth:"Eh! u look matured now!"
Dee: "why, you better say why,Last time i like what. . . "
kenneth: "You look Childish!"
Dee: "OOOooh you."
Dee: "hey i saw Naomi,I see you some other day!Bye"

haha.i didnt believe what ever he said,cos my face was red,(pimples)
Niwaes,i think i wanna grab mago basic tee.light brown.
ok.thats all.

2006-06-22T01:51:00.000-07:00

here a new family name. NEI NEI.

Maryam manei;
Diyanah diyanei;
Dawn dawnei;
Dominique dombnei;
Cecilia cenei;
alex alenei;
jonathan jonnei;

sufen is exceptional;

and here is the nei nei family.On thursday esp.=)

2006-06-21T07:21:00.000-07:00

my heart felt prayers are never of a help,
i never get out of my confusion,
suddenly i feel like crying in his strong arms.
Hoping that he would released the pain within us.

Beautiful poems are created by you,
So sweet of you,thinking of me . .
Every hour every minutes,every seconds
you are too sweet to be licked,
therefore i keep you in my safety box,
i scared that ants would go after the sweet,
Which may ends with nothing.

Love is a path for me to choose,
to choose the path which i want to go,
To find a place that keeps me happy,comfort and secured.
To lead a life full of happiness,
free from sorrow and misery,
seeing you all day all nite ,
make me wanna hold u tight,
Not to let u go,
but be someone by my side,
and thinking of you all the time.
its normal when u in love.

the obstacles i encountered,
that make me trapped in my confusion,
which leads me to stress and depression,
cos i lost my way.
i search and search but still,
i was trapped in the game of love.

when it is time to seal goodbye kiss,
a goodbye may means alot to me,
a kiss is just a kiss,
but a good bye is a real goodbye.
its either you gain or you lose someone,
or to wait for the true love.

Never leave me alone in this world,
when im in ur arms nothing matters.
to me its you and me.
OR just you and me.

i wish i was in that dream land of mine.
fly to the moon
and the sight of you make me weak.
Hoping things go fine.
fine as a wine is all i need.

2006-06-21T01:15:00.001-07:00

its either start with a happy flow or alternatitive flow.
or alternative flow first then basic flow.

today was a happy flow to alternative flow.
why are things getting worst.
from bad to worst.
and why its happened just out of sudden.
why?
why?
im so stress up.
im so confused.
im so so so so so so ... . . .. . i dunnoe.

When i try to stop thinking of this.
someone will start to pop up Question.
why?
why?
why?

2006-06-20T06:06:00.000-07:00

yesterday i wrote a blog.before i had my beauty sleep.
Guess wat?
the next morning,which is today,
it happened that it did not appeared in my blog.
wth?

Niwaes,today wake up late,enjoying my beauty sleep..
bcos its raining. . . received msg from him.
So cold,Luckily i have heater at home.
headed to school.Rain again.

Do project in lab,its like one day i can
get to do one code for dsag or 1Q(bila mau game).like wadd seh..
Then played some games in lab. with the D&D..
sooo childish la they two.esp tat dom singing nursery song.

Then went home straight,and spend time with my twins...
she cooks tom yam rice.Nice ah.
then i also cook,tom yam soup and heated mee goreng.
and we ate alot!

so now watching chinese show.I like to watch
those investigation show.
COPS.

oh ya.i received this cute msg from ides.
haha.(if u dun find it cute then its ok)
Yanah yanah little star,
how i wonder where u are?

hahaha..

ok fine. Watching slither soon.
=)

2006-06-18T01:54:00.000-07:00

its sunday!its sunday.. finally.Its been like 3 days been staying home.its so boring to the core.
its like i just have to eat ,sleep,watch tv,and play comp games.Its so boring.Sick of it!
to think of it, i have to finish up my projects soon.ASAp!

i cant believe that i did nothing through the week,i just wasted my time.lying here and there.Im feeling so moody.Everyone is getting busy.Busier. n me? getting bored boredom.

Urgh! the more i stay at home,the more irritating i am to ppl.i think.I think someone la find me very irritating. irritated.oh well.Oh well its becos i cant accept the fact tt his friend msg me that.UGrh! wth.

Today my kak sedare married.So simple wedding.pelamin very simple.very small.yet many people.Met nurul the pengacara n her sister plus their boyfriends.hais sisters n boyfren look all the same.hahaha... they drop by our block to celebrate with us,my kak sedare wedding.Nurul(suria),She so sexy la.long legs.so tall,and so cheerful.than her sister la.Her sister kebaya not nice ah the design.hahaha...okla. thats all.

feeling bored.very now and then.
i think something is wrong la.
feeling so down.
down,down the drain..
hais.
im afraid.afraid.. losing ____* (shh!..) *personal*

till then.
sayonara.

2006-06-15T21:01:00.000-07:00

had a great day yesterday had make up course instructed by Miss Singapore 1999 ms audrey quek. hehe.We got free goodie bag.n we doll ourself with make up.Oh ya theres alot to know about make up.alot.Magic potion? concealer? wooOOoo..

Then after the course we go catch movie at causeway point.The silent hill was ok.Quite disgusting.but i kinda wanna know more wats the actually the story was.Im slow. haha.
Niwaes at first was dull, then it went well throughout the "our" day.haha.

after a great day, then i reached a hurtful msg.ERrr.. its really sad. i was so down yesterday nite.
why did u do this to me?
ahh... Fcuked*
wat are trying to say here?

okay dun ask me.Before i get fed up....

2006-06-10T08:06:00.000-07:00

you made criedon a daily basis. For it is only then that I can hear the Holy Spirit’s guiding voice. And only then will I be able to take the road less traveled by, and say with Robert Frost, “that has made all the difference.”

ill I be able to take the road less traveled by, and say with Robert Frost, “that has made all the difference.”

2006-06-10T07:39:00.000-07:00

you made cried just now afternoon.
we make me angry i was sad too.
i fall asleep after i cried.
Cos i think i need to rest my mind.
dun force me to make harsh decision.
cos i just need someone to comfort,happiness,
and corcerning.
"kawan mesra" like masturah had said before.
the first person who understand me.

i know im foolish.selfish.but pls understand me.

one day keep listening to dan songs.
it was nice n smooth.
fall for his songs..
today one day i just do house cleaning,
listening to music, editing pics and sleep.
so thats my day.

some edited photos...

2006-06-09T19:05:00.000-07:00

. . .RuQai'yah MastUrina. . .

Intro: Senyuman manismu membuatku tak lara
Kini ku jatuh cinta kepadamu RuQai'yah
Cinta yang ku pendam dahulu
Ingin ku luah kan semua
Tapi sayang,kau masih berada disisinya...

Aku piLu...

Verse1: RuQai'yah,kekasihku yang ku rindu
Di dalam hatiku
Iaitu rupamu membuat ku merayu
Datang kepadamu untuk kata ku cinta kamu
Mengapa kau pergi,sembunyikan diri?
Puasku mencari,tak terjumpalah kini
Hendak ku lepaskan rindu untuk kamu
Tetapi sayang,kau tiada...

RuQai'yah...

Verse2: Senyuman manismu membuat ku tak lara
Kini ku jatuh cinta kepadamu RuQai'yah
Cinta yang ku pendam dahulu
Inginku luarkan semua
Tetapi sayang,kau masih berada disisinya...

Chorus: Aku mencuba menggoda hatimu,tapi engkau tiada ketahui
Ku selalu terbayang-bayang wajahmu,ingin aku mendekati dirimu
Aku terus mencuba'...

Bridge: Aku mahu,mahu bersamamu
Mohon ampun aku berundur diri dahulu
Aku malu,malu kepadamu
Aku berundur diri dahulu...

*Tapi engkau masih di dalam hatiku,setelah cinta yang kita bina
Mestikah kita berpisah akhirnya?
Tapi engkau masih dalam ingatanku setelah sayang kau beri ku
Tak mengerti semua ini...

**Tapi engkau masih di dalam ingatanku
Setelah sayang kau beri pada ku
Tak mengerti semua ini...

~ danny-aL.

This was his song.Nice.Thanks dan.

2006-06-03T19:25:00.000-07:00

Its been long time i havent been blogging.
mugging for the term test which starts from tmr onwards.
so many things had happened behind my back.
its been so many days havent been online.
wondering how my friends are coping? and whats happening??

well had my interview.it was average.i did not do my best.
i was holy shit.I was not happy.oh well had some great times before term test.
had so many things happened but not gonna mention all. everyone was like jaw dropping la.like dun believe that i wore formal like a professional.hahaa.Everyone look at me.to the people who saw me but i didnt smile back.im so sorry.hahaha.People say when i smile can be dangerous too.
hehehe... but if u know me well i tend to smile more n crazy little girl.

there is so many movies going on.
and i have just watch xmen3 and benchwarmers(i lovesssthisto the core)
i laughtilli rock the chair.hehe.Thanks for the treat.

and ya yesterday stay in school till 10.15pm.my bro was so kind n nice,
he fetch me home with his new big bike.Damn big ah.i think three person can seat like that.my butt so small and i keep falling from the seat.So big la the seat.
woooo... one time he sent me to school by car like too fast too furious car gt blue light beneath the car,during sec schl,now bike.how amazing.And im the first one to ride his bike in my family...... weeee... cool man.

p/s:Anything u guys wanna ask me out.tell me beforehand.And for those had compliments me during my formal wear presentation thanks for ur compliments..

mugging for term test.

2006-05-26T05:57:00.000-07:00

Save the day - ups and down.
dedicated to euu..

And I'm gunna get to, the bottom of this
Gunna peal back my, skin
And look at myself shakin', and shiverin', yeah, yeah
And I'll get through
Come in the house
Survey the scene
Find the two of them tall as trees
And I turn myself upI found the coolantto dangle in my twilight,
wellAnd I'm gunna get to, the the bottom of this
Gunna peal back my, skin
Look at myself shakin', and shiverin', yeah, yeah
And as my skin collects,in a pile on the ground
I'll radiate heat
And turn off my head
And just pretend, I don't insist
That I'll stay clearly til the end
Of the ropes that I've been hanging fromWhoa-oh-oh,
I say loosen from the trees
I plummet to the ground, feel impaled and turned around
Turn me right aroundFinally Free from the ups and downs
And I'm gunna get to the bottom of this
gunna peal back my skin
And look at myself shakin' and shiverin', yeah, yeah
And I'm gunna get to the bottom of this
gunna peal back my skin
And look at myself shakin' and shiverin', yeah, yeah

p/s: thank idris for the orange rose and the chocalate n brownie.

:)

2006-05-19T09:04:00.000-07:00

halo.halo.ITs friday and at last.Oh man its alreay week 4.
im still dumb.
doomed.

Ok let me think back.Wat did i do for the past few days.

mon: Nothing.Sad.

tues: Nothing.Get bullied.

Wed:Nothing much.boring.Go cut hair.Met irritating mat Rip.I cant be bothered with him.
Thursday:weee~ chat with haryati.n we need to catch up sometimes
so many make up man this semester.So many holidays.damn!
oh ya n girl in my class won against the boys.So we gonna get our rewards soon.
chocalates!! wee....

Friday: Tired.nothing much.Write to course manager.CMSK mock interview was suck.
i cant answer.Its so difficult for me to speak.Edwin join our group.Oh man he is so
talkative.BUt he is fun.We tot he was malay.He is eurasian plus indian.heehe
nice meeting him.Enjoyable~

Saturday: Go buy things for presenattion n for papa.
Sunday: rest.

Upcomin events

CCN day
interview(formal wear)
2 OOAd make up lab
make up course
Professional course
Term test

2006-05-16T06:24:00.000-07:00

why thing really goes ups and down?

why?

why?

Its like one after the other.
why?

Am i such an ignorant?
Am i so 'Menyampah'?
Am i...
am..

i simply dont understand..

continue being like this?..

2006-05-15T06:00:00.000-07:00

monday blues..
feeling sulky and sad
how many times must i say soorrry..
when u are not listening to me.
i hurt alot.do you noe?
i didnt mean to hurt u but it was joke!
why you went pissed off...
im very sorry.irritates me this morning till now.
but i guess i will cool down by the time.
niwaes saw soo many people in ITAS canteen.
i think i didnt smile to ides frens.Sorry i was not in mood.
Please make up ur mind.Im tired.
Feeling bad actually.Dont have mood.for a day!

cant wait to watch dia last episode.3hrs man! hehe

p/s: we are not back together.we are just friends.And yes we went out to buy mum day gift.
stop asking.

currently listening to : nickel black-far away.

2006-05-14T00:51:00.000-07:00

i got a blue flower from him.
so sweet of him buying me flower trying
to escape from me and pretend to be pretending.

I really gonna used up my free 1000sms for this month.
so life have been ups and down.
And idris nightmare is so scary.Freak out!.
Oh well stop thinking too much.Relax urself more.
Joining more competitions quite good for you..

NIwaes so packed with myself writing letters.
1.Cover letter,
2.resume
3.to course manager.(this is suck)

erm.. this semester very hard.im still not ready for school!
i havent print notes for this week.
im in trouble.

2006-05-07T02:58:00.000-07:00

Heartbreaker?
why?

fine.Leave it then.

2006-05-06T07:06:00.000-07:00

Women are never supposed to have any occupation of sufficient importance not to be interrupted, except "suckling their fools"; and women themselves have accepted this, have written books to support it, and have trained themselves so as to consider whatever they do as not of such value to the world as others, but that they can throw it up at the first "claim of social life". They have accustomed themselves to consider intellectual occupation as a merely selfish amusement, which it is their "duty" to give up for every trifler more selfish than themselves. Women never have an half-hour in all their lives (except before and after anybody is up in the house) that they can call their own, without fear of offending or of hurting someone. Why do people sit up late, or, more rarely, get up so early? Not because the day is not long enough, but because they have "no time in the day to themselves".

2006-05-04T08:28:00.000-07:00

i had World cyber game in tp as event official.
i didnt do much work.But eat alot.
Too tense.Maybe.
Some pics taken by spy camera that surrounds me.
my heart is out of shape.
Received beautiful messages by him.THANKS!

2006-05-02T07:05:00.000-07:00

ok last monday went to downtown.
For MAY day carnival. hahaa
had fun in the theme park.Its free.thanks to Nabilah.
And provide us the ticket.

Oh well very destressing ride i had.Shouting here and there.
Screaming like hell.WAH!having so much fun there till evening.
Was shocked that my family didnt call me.hahaa.

Then went to play some carnival game to waste our coupon.played arcade game.Had dinner after that before heading off.I met alot of Siglap family there too.

Oh ya.i work at fast food outlet for like 15 mins free flow of food.hahaha
cos my fren was the IC hahaha.took alot of nanchos and CHEESE!and we bought Candy floss.Giant one!

OK.Not to forget "Happy belated birthday Zahirah!"

2006-04-27T06:46:00.000-07:00

TPSU Day!

2006-04-27T05:22:00.000-07:00

Evetytime i dropped by his blog i wanna cry.
Looking at the words surrounds his blog ..hurt me soo much.
Didnt expect he could talk to me that way.
Saying things that i dun want him too.
So fast wish me for my future life and so on.
and its like im not gonna be with him anymore.

when I heard that.And i had no say for that..speechless.
Now im crying ... But why didnt i cry with him along just now.
I thought he could understand me.
the word i can remember was "last".. dot dot..
i was shocked.i didnt believe watever happened just now.
and what he said.. i was expecting something else.
but he said he trust me too.

im deeply hurt...if he had other girls were in his hand.
once upon atime..im gonna be jealous.
im jealous.seriously.*let me declare first*

p/s: i was hoping that he would write in that purple book.
in order to exchange feelings.to let him let out his feelings and those things that he had wanted from or said.BUt he ask me to keep and dont throw.
*disappointing*

Thanks for everything.
if u wanna erase ur feeling for me.you go ahead.
cos i cant do anything.This is wat u want.=(
i'll always be by ur side.

2006-04-09T03:12:00.000-07:00

Mengapa aku yang terakhir
Dibias berita cintamu padanya
Adakah kita tak serupa
Serasi bersama tinggal ku tertanya

Senyumku yang dulu kau puja
Hilang mekarnya di senjakala
Permata kau memilih kaca
Hingga meledakkan hati yang setia

Di depanmu aku dijagamu dia
Di matamu aku di hatimu dia
Siang dan malamku terusan bertanya
Sampai bilakah engkau dengannya
Bila bulan berubah warna

Mimpi ngeri menjadi nyata
Sekali kuucap cinta untuk selamanya
Namun kau cuba untuk menduga asmara
Kau tahu aku 'kan terus setia

2006-04-02T06:15:00.000-07:00

Nurul & Ajai - Serasi Bersama
Semakin hari aku rasalahKita macam makin serasi
Kau rasa tak?
Semakin hari semakin serasi
Bagai pagi dengan sinar matahari
Bagai malam dengan kerdipan bintang yang berseri
Terlintas saja hati belum ku luahkan
Kau dah pun tahu bagai tiada lagi rahsiaAntara diri kita berdua
Semakin hari semakin serasi
Bagai gelora dan laut air dan tasik
Tak dicemari bagai puncak dan lembah lereng dan titi
Terguris saja hati belum ku tangis ku
Dah kau belai seperti sakit ku ini
Kau yang terasa jiwa kita serupa
Kita bagai satu permata
Terbelah bercantum semula
Hingga langsung tiada terlihat garisnyaPemisah halus rambut dibelah halus
Kita bagai satu jiwa
Yang bercerai terpatri kembali
Hingga langsung tiada terlihat lainnya
Di dalam hanya ada kekasih hati
Kekasih hati ku

2006-04-02T04:36:00.000-07:00

yayness.. im so happy to meet him today.
Very missed him soo much.
followed him to school to watch the rockmania.
Then went to Marine Parade.. And home sweet home.
Then while on the way to Parkway,in bus he gave me souvenirs
that he bought from china.He bought for me nike sweater,
brooch,calender and magnetic bracelet.hehe.sosweet of him.
I thought he wont have time to shop for me.
oooh the sweater.. i thought of buying it the last time,
at last i got new nice sweater.Then on our way back home it rain heavily.
It remind us of our unhappiness in the past during our trip to sim lim.
Reached home around..5.15pm,straight away i quickly ngaji with my grandmother.
and i have been shitting alot this day.haha.Relief man.
ps:my pay havent update in my bank..Urgh ..i wanna buy mp3.

So blessed
To be around you
Till the end of time
Always strung out for another
Taste of your honey

It's like honey when it washes over me
You know sugar never ever was so sweet
And I'm dying for you cryin' for you
I adore you

One hit of your love addicted me
Now I'm strung out on you darlin'
Don't you see every night and day
I can hardly wait for another taste of honey

2006-04-01T06:41:00.000-08:00

its been abt 4 weeks working there.
ok.so far the work is damn easy.Just calculate
top up booth amount.Its getting bored..
i nid to plug in some music to my ears
to give me encouragement and strength.
hahaha... okla i just got my pay last Fri.
hehe..not bad ah quite alot but not as much as my fren.
so we intend to buy mp3.Zen neon.hehehe...
cant wait. still cant decide ipod nano or zen neon 1Gb.
missing my dear for nearly one week.
yesterday shed some tears.. dunnoe la why out of sudden.
Niwaes i just change my blogskins... nid to edit some thing..
but i dunnoe what happened to the size suddenly it shrink.
and i forgot how to wite code for image..
so i have to use photobucket instead.

Btw Happy April Fool Day!

2006-03-12T03:59:00.000-08:00

how do i look with curlie wirlie...?
dear dun freak out.. with my hair.. hehe ....

do i look sexy?
do i look sweet?
do i look beautiful?
do i look ugly?
do i look weird?
do i look adorable?
do i...?
comments please... hehehe..

2006-03-11T20:06:00.000-08:00

here is my result.

Fundamental of management : B+

target: A

Internet and information system : B+

target: B+

Networked Multimedia : B+

target: B+

Data and communication Networking : B

target: A

Object oriented programming : D+

target: C

Cmaths2 : D

target: D

GPA: 2.49

improved by : 0.27

(compare to last semester)

2006-03-11T03:04:00.000-08:00

ok camp for 4 days..
and im getting dark..
many things happen during the camp..
some things are unexpected,
like unfairness,boring, too free,
cos im admin soo... nothing much to do..
so mas n me too free.. n we hang arnd in school.
we slack at lt.haha.
then i search for things to take pics..
bored n blow bubble in lt..
then one the nite meet aisyah (food comm) we follow
her to SAA to do supper food.
hahah ate alot during camp.
very hungry..wat to do..
then after doing stuff we tok abt ghost story..
aisyah story was freaking..damn..
suddenly my bulu roma .freak.
muhahaha...
the next day i was the station master for mastermind.
damn shiok la played wif water with the five groups.
see dem kene wet..
then many people dun like this green stripe guy
they will alwys remind each other for sabotage him..
hahaha...
then i had nite performance..
was fun.. RA 21..
funny.. hahah enjoy it..
then at 3 am i went home..
jonathan send me home wif his car.
he was so nice.send me to my doorstep.hehehe.
so sorry to trouble euu.

pics will be up.

2006-03-05T05:54:00.000-08:00

2006-03-03T16:29:00.000-08:00

wee.. yesterday went so well.
A first was shaky..
like didnt really talk to each other.
then after reaching to Hougang interchange
we are back to square..like normal.
haha.. cool down.
then we went to bugis to exchange bus.
we took 7 and went to Orchard.
WoW.. so many things i wanna buy.
Alot.. i wanna buy this and that.. and couldnt
make my choice..
then we walk from heeren till lucky plaza..
in heeren just 2 storey e took 2hrs to window shop.
then just walk till lucky plaza.
then dop by this ip zone. i think...
okla on SALE! last 3 day..

so went in and check it out.
and we both both t shirt and shoes..
hehe.. went we buying our things..
my dear like not happy or not trusting me with my shoes size .lolx
then i wanted the colour same as him..
he say "doesnt suit".. wah...
Can see le.. u still wanna deniedto me..
but never mind..
bought already.. so i give in n i took brown colour.

ok.thats all..
yeah baby.. keep saying iloveeuuu... many times..
hehehe..
love ya.

2006-03-02T05:24:00.000-08:00

No one by my side, when im alone.
no one there for me,
and wat if it is emergency?..
wat if i had been into trouble?
wat if..
im feeling down..
feeling disappointed..
really disaapointed.

im just alone.No companion.
now im back to be independent
as i was before.
Like i say "Nothing is forever.."

2006-03-01T02:00:00.000-08:00

Nothing last FOREVER ...

2006-03-01T01:52:00.000-08:00

Last but not least.. i enjoyed my days

memories..

2006-02-26T02:19:00.000-08:00

A full moon is waiting in the twilight

Maybe soon you will come to be my light

Here we are

Hoping that we'll never part

Stay with me ..

I know there is a rainbow

For me to follow

To get beyond my sorrow

Thunder precedes the sunlight

So I'll be alright

If I can find that Rainbow's end

I don't want another pretender

To disillusion me one more time

Whispering words of forever

Playing with my mind

When you love someone so deeply

They become your life

It's easy to succumb to overwhelming fears inside

Blindly I imagined I could Keep you under glass

Now I understand to hold you

I must open up my hands

And watch you rise

------butterfly-----

And hopefully after this exam

im able to spend most of time,enjoyment..

besides that hoping i could go through year 2

And NO SUPPLEMENTARY paper for me.

and end of year 1.2..

2006-02-09T21:30:00.000-08:00

My FOM3 group member presentation Day!

me and aisyah

FOM3 );

Tp grass carpet

me and crystal